a dump.

what? it is a dump, a picture dump. Dump. What a word. Say it! Isn't it funny? Dump. Ok that's enough.

I decided to do a post full of images from some recent shoots I've done. 

Enjoy this load (HA) of pictures.

See images from my shoot with 10th Concession here!

Have a lovely day!

should not be the same.

Up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness, because none of it was ever worth the risk. But, you are the only exception....I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.

Sooo, I only wish I had written those words. Props and thanks to Paramore.


There is an unbelievable amount of things I want to say, feelings to express, words that won't come out, in regards to this post. However, this is not the time nor the place. More-so not the time. What I'll do is break down the lyrics from the song I started with:

I have been 110% content with loneliness! In fact, I had even stopped considering myself lonely. In the words of my Johnny-boy Mayer, I was "perfectly lonely"! That song had become my anthem. It gave me an appreciation for my current "status" along with hope for my future (see lyrics below).

"And this is not to say
There never comes a day
I'll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I have to thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong"

Prior to accepting my "perfectly lonely" self, you could have considered me a straight up man-hater. Straight up! I despised men a.k.a. b-o-y-s. I like Urban Dictionary's definition-A bitter woman who thinks all men are scum without reason, and hates a man just because he is of the male gender. It’s often the result of an [important] male figure in her life hurting her emotionally.

Bitter I was. I've been through my fair share of douche bags!

And with that I have totally lost my train of thought! Moving on....

"you are the only exception". This seems so silly to me but, I've met someone who in a short amount of time has become an exception to just about everything I've felt in the past few years. This "you" I speak of is trouble. Actually, I've just allowed it to make trouble. For me, no one else. I'm sure he has no clue! He is a man/boy/douche bag after all. He's an adorably attractive man with a cute boyish smile that has slight douche bag-ish tendencies because, again, he is a man. They all have that "quality".

See, now I have to stop this whole post because I'm going to start telling you why I think he's so great. That could take all night...no time for that.

I'll end with this, my fear is that I'll be "one of the guys". I-am-terrified!!! Backing off sounds like a good plan. Putting "who?" after his name ("__________ who?") and pretending to forget/not care works for a minute or two. "Running away" sounds awesome!!! I've inquired with a friend about staying at a vacation house for the weekend. Just me. No computer. "No" phone-it'll be on for emergency purposes ONLY. This idea came to me the other day after I realized I was letting Mr. Exception get to me. Things started looking up and I began to take over instead of continuing to pray and let God have control. No can do! I won't have that! I need to get away and put my priorities back in order. Think. Veg. Separate myself almost completely from everything.

Just to be clear, this little getaway is not just about Mr. Exception. I won't give him that much credit. I've been making some life changes, or trying to anyways, and some have already taken place, some have fallen through and some have yet to take effect. I need time to figure out what's next.

without further adieu.

Just over a month ago, my ears had the privilege to hear and my eyes the pleasure to see an incredibly talented band perform live. A privilege because such talent won't go unnoticed for long. A pleasure because they're easy on the eyes and have the sweetest of hearts. I'm honored to call this amazing group of guys [my] friends.

Meet 10th Concession!!!

from left to right-Evan Koteles, David Daniels, Matthew Brady and Ian Koteles.

Never, and I've had my fair share, have I personally known a band so driven to succeed. So hardworking. So dedicated. It's so refreshing!

Now that I've doubled the circumference of all four of their heads, I'll get to all the info you need to know to get to know them for yourself...and how to snag a free CD! Schweeet!

You can find them on:
Facebook-group
Facebook-page
Myspace

Be sure and join so you can stay up to date on upcoming shows and events!

Here's how to score a free CD signed by 10th Concession; visit Tara's blog and follow one or more of the instructions given. You can comment on my blog as well and the info will be forwarded to Tara before the deadline.

Now before I go, I have to "brag" (w/ pictures) about the opportunity I had to shoot these fine fellows. Enjoy! *the image above included*

That, my friends is the one and only, 10th Concession. Commit that name to memory because one day you will be bobbing that head of yours to a song of theirs, on the radio. Scouts honor. Pinky promise. Cross my heart and hope to die. Honestly.

glitter in the air...

So, once again this is not the intended post that I've been promising but, when your heart has something to say it's sort of hard to ignore!

Life has been pretty flippin' sweet lately! Now, I realized that before today, it's just today I found myself reflecting on some things and ended up back at this past Tuesday. I had an interview and was asked "what makes you happy?" As I went to open my mouth to answer my eyes began to tear up! WHY IN THE WORLD WAS I CRYING?! Especially during an interview!! Let me answer that-one, I couldn't remember the last time someone had asked me that. Two, I could finally, after 3-4 years, say that something made me genuinely happy! My reply was "everything!", with as big of a smile as my tears would allow. It felt amazing! Being vulnerable is no easy task for me. Although, in that moment, I felt stronger than I've ever felt! I thank God for putting me through the trials and hardships. I know now it's so I'd come out of it realizing the beauty of life and really living and loving every second of it!

Have a lovely day!

If you haven't heard it yet, go listen to "glitter in the air" by Pink! Love love LOVE it!

dusty talents.

God thing or not, today I somehow ended up watching Hillsong performances on youtube. They are insanely talented and all possess angelic voices. My voice, FAR from angelic, is decent and I thoroughly enjoy singing so why in the world am I not?! I mean I sing every single day, sometimes all day but why not where people can hear? My excuse is "I'm not ready." Lame! That's become a habitual answer and I will stop. The other excuse I give is "I don't want to sing to a track." And honestly I do not want to sing with a track. I'm not saying I expect a full on band behind me but give me a track and the choir or an acoustic guitar and a back-up or a piano and a back-up. My fear is that if I go in with "demands" I'll be let down and discouraged. I'm scared. However, I've overcome hurdles much bigger than this itty bitty one. I've never wanted to be the "frontman". I've always wanted to be back-up. I enjoy singing the harmony to a melody. So sweet.

My ultimate goal [has always been] is to refresh my talent to play the piano and sing while I play. I've tried the guitar but have been unsuccessful. I WILL learn to play it one day. I want to write, play, sing! A passion for music was given to me for a reason so I refuse to let it go to waste.

So, who wants to back me up?! ; )


This was not my intended post but I had to put it out there, it kind of bursted out in type.


Have a beautiful weekend!

quickie.

this is just a quick little update because I'm excited about a purchase I just made!

purchase #1  from photojojo

This lens adapter's extremely wide angle and super short focal length twists, distorts, and warps your photos into perfect circles turning all that's rectilinear, curvilinear. It's made out of multi-coated high definition optical glass that's got a big thing for color. Because it's an adapter and not just a lens it picks up and bounces off the dandiest little pieces of lens flare.

purchase #2 also from photojojo

What better way to tote your precious camera cargo than with a retired lifesaving device? These handmade camera straps come straight from the benches of wreck yard automobiles!
It's time you gave your camera the haltering strength it deserves, and the super funky style it's been silently hoping for. Be the first person on your block to start wearing a seat belt around your neck!

Choose from six colors: Burgundy, Teal, White, Red, Lime, and Silver

I went with the lime strap! it is so greeeen! love it!


OK, expect a bigger WAY better blog later this evening or tomorrow...or before the weekend ; )
off to work. gross!

poor thing.

My poor, sad, neglected blog! I just haven't had it in me lately! I have been insanely busy. I pledge to update more often starting...the next time I post something ; ) I don't wanna make a promise I can't keep! I mean it's not like I have a huge following : / I AM proud of my 3 though! Sorry ol' faithfuls. I'll shoot for a picture dump next time and then that should get me going again!

Have a happy easter! ()()
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